Complain, Defend, Suck it up?

Sometimes life is full of craps isn't it? do you choose to complain bout it? Defend it? or just mainly sucking it all up!?

Mostly people around me just knows how to complain, complain, complain, complain and complain. It's pretty annoying to me and when people does so, I just keep quiet and suck up the crap that they are complaining about. Ya, maybe you think I'm chickening up the crap but giving the situation some stuff are not even worth complaining about. Even if you complain about it, it won't change the situation, cos it already happened. Nobody will give a shit either on you or whatever that you complaining about. People will just hear blah blah blah and wine wain wain from you like a baby.

Sucking up every crap is bad either. It's like you don't give a damn on anything. It's pretty unhealthy too but at least people won't think that you are annoying right? For me is not, not giving a damn on things. It's pretty numb for me. For instance, the food you ordered is not the same as the picture they display in. Surely, is not the same, they advertise it good with good photography skill or good photoshop skill. What is there to complain? But of course it can't be too huge of the difference also. So just suck it up! It's not like someone murder your family so just STFU and eat your food!

As for defending, I think when situations like someone accuse you on something  you didn't do or someone accuse your beloved on something till you can't take it then only you defend. When you defend too much, people will think that you are too serious and can't take any jokes. It's very good to be able to defend yourself sometimes, cos if you STFU all the time, bullies will just continue bullying you know that you will just hide yourself away. When the right time (probably when you can't stand the bullying/critics anymore) comes to defend yourself, we all should and it will show others that we are not that easily being bullied.

For me complaining really is a big no no, sucking it up is just a plain I hack care but doesn't mean I don't know what is happening and defending is when there's a limit for your patience.

What about you guys? Are you the one who always complain? suck it up? or defending yourself?

Sorry That I Love You

This song is very good and sad....... cuts straight to your heart! Remorse over it!



For all of the time that i tried for your smile
For making you think that i was worth the while
So your love love love love love would be mine
For sending you flowers and holding your hand
That no one was there to take a stand
But then love love love made us blind
And I’m so sorry that I hurt you
Sorry that I fell through
Sorry i was falling in love with you
I’m sorry that it came true
But sorry doesn’t turn back time
For all that i have done to you
I wish that i could make it right
So sorry that i loved you
Sorry that i needed you
Sorry that i hold you tight
And I’m So sorry for...
Making you love me and saying goodbye
For being the one that taught you how to cry
It was love love love and it passed us by
For giving you every thing that you dreamed
For taking it back when i fled the scene
sorry love,for wasting your time
And I’m so sorry that I hurt you
Sorry that I fell through
Sorry i was falling in love with you
I’m sorry that it came true
But sorry doesn’t turn back time
For all that i have done to you
I wish that i could make it right
I’m so sorry that i loved you
Sorry that i needed you
Sorry that i hold you tight
And apology now after all of this time
Won’t make my difference tonight
But I’m hoping I’m Sorry will open your mind
To love love love love in your life
Sorry that i hurt you
Sorry that i fell through
Sorry i was falling in love with you
I’m sorry that it came true
But sorry doesn’t turn back time
For all that i have done to you
I wish that i could make it right
So sorry that i hurt you
Sorry that i fell through
Sorry i was falling in love with you
I’m sorry that it came true
But sorry do can’t turn back time
I’m sorry that i loved you
I’m sorry that i hurt you
I’m so sorry that i loved you
I’m sorry that i hurt you
Sorry that i loved you

One of the boys

I have been schooling with girls most of my education life other than kindergarten and college. So, my contact with boys are some what very very very minimum... is not that I desperately want to know boys during my teenage years is the exposure is late. But then if I think about it, it's actually a good thing, at least I graduate secondary with good grades, I didn't let my parents worried about me and boys and blah blah blah...

Anyhow, other than my schooling days that I barely have contact with boys but in my family, I always get to hang out with boys. I have a one and only brother and lots of cousin brothers! I kinda grew up boyishly.

During my college years, I start to get along with a lot of boys. I guess girls around me would probably think that I'm a bitach for always hanging out with boys. Honestly, hanging out with boys are so much easier than hanging out with girls. For all the girls out there, you do know what I'm talking about right? Girls tends to have those backstabbing, gossips, fake, girl cat fights issues. Which I think NO ones likes it. With boys, you can be straight forward when talking, can talk about any topics (other than girls stuff, like shopping, makeups and etc), and of course being just the only girl in the gang of boys, boys will somewhat protect/sayang the girl which is good. You feel you have the privileged on certain treatments and of course protected from danger.

Years gone by, I do still am hanging out with boys most of the time but all the boys treats me like one of the boys. FML but I do keep a balance, I do talk about my girl stuffs with my best girlfriends! *hugs to all my best girlfriends* Boys are not so sensitive when it comes to these kind of stuff.

Hope you all do like the Katy Perry's One of the Boys song. Share your experiences with me if you all experience the same as me.

Sleepwalker

I know, I know, Adam Lambert had came and gone and so does Paramore, but to fans that did went or did not when to both of these concerts are still having withdrawal symptoms. I can still remember how was I when I went to Avril's concert! The before and after withdrawal symptoms can last for quite sometime and all you gonna talk and listen to is about them! ROFL

Anyways, I really like this song a lot from Adam's album. It truly speak out how much you love that someone but yet could not yet any in return and you just hanging there wondering *stuck*. Sad and cruel but true.




I saw a picture of you
Hanging in an empty hallway
I heard a voice that I knew
And I couldn't walk away
It took me back to the end
Of everything
I tasted all
I tasted all the tears
again

Outside the rain's fallin' down
There's not a drop that hits me
Scream at the sky but no sound
Is leavin' my lips
It's like I can't even feel
After the way you touched me

I'm not asleep but I'm not awake

After the way you loved me

I can't turn this around

I keep running into walls that I can't break down

I said I just wander around

With my eyes wide shut because of you

I'm a sleepwalker walker walker
I'm a sleepwalker walker walker

Let me out of this dream

Everywhere that I go

I see another memory

And all the places we used to know

They're always there to haunt me

I walk around and I feel so lost and lonely

You're everything that I want

BUT YOU DON'T WANT ME!

I can't turn this around
I keep running into walls that I can't break down
I said I just wander around
With my eyes wide shut because of you
I'm a sleepwalker walker walker
I'm a sleepwalker walker walker

Let me out of this dream, dream
Let me out of this dream

I can't turn this around
I keep running into walls that I can't break down
I said I just wander around
With my eyes wide shut because of you
I'm a sleepwalker walker walker
I'm a sleepwalker walker walker
I'm a sleepwalker walker walker

I'm a sleepwalker walker walker

Let me out of this dream

- Zen -

Ever have that feeling that all you wanted to be is just to be at a place quietly alone and just be zen/me time/doze your mind/day dream? It's not just having alone time or quiet time is consider zen time right? or doing yoga or meditation is consider zen time right? I guess, just having a temporary time to just have a peace of your mind on your own is consider zen time. At least for me.

I used to feel zen when I was in the toilet because I feel that that's the one and only place where you have your very private moments. Like you would only sing when you are bathing, some people only able to read when their doing their "business", looking yourself most in the mirror, crying and of course being zen. Is like temporary locking yourself up away from the chaotic world and just have some peace with yourself and take big steps back, take big breaths and just pause.

Lately my zen time became when I'm driving alone. I will blast my radio and auto-pilot myself and just drive. Sometimes shout my heart out to sing along with the songs I know. It's dangerous I know but somehow I find it dangerously peaceful. But I will only do it in auto-pilot mode, so no worries.

I feel that is best that we sometimes do get some time to have some peaceful thoughts because this will keep us sane from the insanity out there when you try so hard to keep up or keep hold on it.

So tell me what and when is your zen time?