Amor Fati

Epik High latest album is amazing. All of the songs are spammed daily, thanks bro. *rolls eyes*

They came back with Born Hater. I think most of the K-Pop lovers must at least listen to this song once by now.


Though, I do like their collaboration with Lee Soo Hyun of AKMU in Happen Ending. AKMU is my latest favourite group, they are too cute together.


Amor Fati which means 'Love of Fate' in Latin, has caught my attention and it has become my favourite song in the album. It kind of speak out for my unspoken soul.


God doesn’t love me
I have a lot to get off my chest
No need for a confession
Just give me the ashtray
Inhale. Exhale
Curses come out before the smoke
If I dirty my body and mouth
Hell
Will I remember you for a moment?
You’re my sleeping pill, my caffeine
My virus, my vaccine
My bible, my dirty magazine under my bed
I’m in trouble
We’re perfectly fitting pieces for different puzzles
What the unholy world considers holy
They cannot change me.
Nothing can save me.

You try to run away,
run away from the world.
But then you run away,
run away from yourself
and you don’t know the way home
I believe in myself
I believe in the moments I can see with my eyes
I believe in this drink
But they call me a non-believer.

You try to run away,
run away from the world.
But then you run away,
run away from yourself
and you don’t know the way home.
I believe in myself
I believe in the sweat on my hands
I believe in my heart
I believe in love
But they call me a non-believer.

A greater vice than selling me drugs is selling me the wrong answer
That answer is my fear, reeling in ignorance and unhappiness
It’s a business that sells me meat for several times more than it’s valued
I eat it for nothing
Fate carries life and the mission
Marinating salvation with ideas of fame
On top of an unknown future
It’s the source of a thousand illnesses that kicks away the meal table of the starved reality
It’s hell’s kitchen
They’re all gathering under the red sign of their favorite place
Saying each place is the original, being stubborn about their own taste
What they sell is the same poison
The scariest of it all are the overeating ideas
Just one meal of answers makes the table shake
Making you salivate until you can’t even hold the spoon anymore
Blind beliefs, showing signs of indigestion only after you show blood

You try to run away,
run away from the world.
But then you run away,
run away from yourself
and you don’t know the way home
I believe in myself
I believe in the moments I can see with my eyes
I believe in this drink
But they call me a non-believer.

You try to run away,
run away from the world.
But then you run away,
run away from yourself
and you don’t know the way home.
I believe in myself
I believe in the sweat on my hands
I believe in my heart
I believe in love
But they call me a non-believer.

There’s no way home.

They break a perfectly fine leg and make you use a cane
They make you eat a poisonous apple when you’re hungry
They make you hold guns and knives instead of hands
Are you all clean?

They break a perfectly fine wing and make you crawl on the ground
They click tongues and point fingers
Does that mean you can throw stones at the sin-less?
Isn’t throwing a stone a sin itself?

Oh God.
He doesn’t love me.
I know He doesn’t love me.
Well, neither do I.
Neither do I.

We are others.

We are the others.

DIY Liese Bubble Hair Dye for the First Time

Hey all, I'm well and alive just in case you all are wondering. I don't want to blog about my MIA period yet. So for now, just wanna blog about my first time experience with Liese Bubble Hair Dye.

I'm sure all of you are well known about Liese Bubble Hair Dye by now. So I won't go into details. Though it is true that it's easy to use as learning ABC. You know the trail.

This was my before wear out coloured hair that I'm very beh tahan of. My short hair has grown out too. Wanna keep it longer this time around.

 

As you can see my roots are growing out and I have like 3 shades of colour on my head.

This is what you get inside of the packaging. The colour I chose was Elegant Ash. Feel like going for very dark colour this time.

From left to right, the box, chemical colouring #1, chemical colouring #2 of which you need to mixed it before using. Pump for creating the bubble effect. Conditional treatment for after colouring and a pair of gloves.

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Start of bubble dying hair

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Try to cover all parts of the hair

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30 minutes later

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New hair colour! The colour did not came out as dark as I wanted but it's better than the before look. Probably because I still have my previous mocha wear out colour. The results is satisfying.

This was the colour a day after. There's the ash colour element in it which I really like.

This is a week later. The colour reflects differently under different lighting. This is from natural sunlight. If you noticed the bottom part of my hair is a different shade. It IS the exact colour of Elegant Ash. I guess that my bleach hair still works it's magic of bringing out the exact colour. Love it!

This is from very low light. It can go pretty dark if it's indoor.

The above two pictures are indoors with better lighting. Pretty cool, right?

It's not bad being my first time dying my own hair. I usually help my bro to dye his. Hope the colour could stay on longer, this we have to see. Till then see ya for now.

Short Break Updates

Hey all, a lot has happened since April and my real life have not even catch up with what is going on more along blog about it.

Anyway, this is just a quick and very short update. Let's just take it off from April. I went to Japan for a family trip and totally fell in love with the country. It even change some life perspective of mine. It's like you can never turn back once you have been to Japan. Enough said!

After Japan, it was Granpa 90th birthday. It was a big celebration/ mega reunion in my hometown. Literally almost everyone was there! Everyone had a great time. Rested for a bit. Besties of mine came to KL for a mini foodie trip. I was playing foodie tour guide. Ate so much and also had a great time with them.

Now, I'm in London. So far, I have been here for almost a week now. Jet lag is quite a bi*tch. Can't really sleep and eat right. I guess is aging, never had jet lag before though :( The weather is not that Summer yet but I think it's getting there. My body have to deal with the cold too besides of jet lag. So, I have been a walking zombie for a bit. Though the places I have been so far is very memorable. I have been to Royal Albert Hall for a Star Trek Live Concert, shop and browse around central London on Saturday and chilled out at Brighton beach on Sunday.

Can't wait to share all these adventures with you all, till then ciao!

Eating Clean

I want to wish everyone an advance Happy Chinese New Year! Drive safe when traveling home.

OK, I'm sure by now you have heard of eating clean. I wasn't aware of it until last month, reading it in a magazine while having my hair cut short. After reading it I have made eating clean as one of my new year's resolutions.

Basically eating clean is laying off processed foods and eating healthier. It's not a diet, it's a health practice. People has always believe in diet to lose weight but it is always just a temporary solution. Once the diet has stop and you are out of control, resume your pre-non-diet routine/eating habits, you end up gaining weight again. Thus, the vicious cycles starts all over again. I realize that in order to lose weight the healthier way is to change your eating habits. Of course, exercising is also one of the option but most of the time what we eat, ends up reflecting in our body, mind and soul.

These are just basics of eating clean.
Eat whole foods
Avoid processed foods
Eliminate refined sugar
Eat five or six small meals a day
Cook your own meals
Combine protein with carbs

I don't want to bore you with the details of the basics but you get the picture, right? You can learn more here (I find it a bit funny that this topic has it's own For Dummies and Cheat Sheet) and here. You can Google your research yourself too :)

Here's my current eating habits and working on eating clean.

Avoid fast food - I used to have Mc D on a weekly basis but I have cut down to not even once a month. I only eat when I really have no choice for outside food. This habit I have started half a year ago without knowing about eating clean.

Say no to soft drink - I don't like soft drink all my life, so this won't be a problem for me.

Add more vege or fruits in your daily meals - this is what I have been lacking of, it's hard to do it if you are eating out all the time. At some point of the time, I don't even like vege and being very selective on the veges I put in my mouth. But I have add more vege in my meals now and it doesn't frustrate me.

Reduce alcohol intake - I have lay off alcohol as much as I can. I will only drink it if there's any occasions. I usually drink beer but maybe will go for wine as wine is healthier.

Lessen the sugar - I have sweet tooth, I like chocolate (but only take dark chocolate), I don't like sweets (weird, huh?), I don't usually add sugar in my coffee unless is damn bitter. I drink tea without sugar, I will order juices or any other beverage will less sugar now. I also will try to quit my daily 3-in-1 coffee intake as the sugar level in them are high.

Include more whole grain - I used to have cornflakes or cereals as breakfast but I have since change them to whole grains, wheat or oats. Try to opt for red rice and whole grain breads instead of whites.

Whole food - this is the most important part of eating clean. Always try to select food, even when you are out, that are for a whole. Cooking at home is the best because you know the ingredients that you are using. Avoid frying your food. Go for soup, stri-fry, steam. I have now in the 4th week of having as many soup dinner as possible.

Eating healthier is not a diet to restrict/cut off yourself from your sinful indulges. You have to be willing to take it as a lifestyle. As I said, dieting is only for short term but a lifestyle for long term. You have to practice one day at a time, in this case, one meal at a time to adopt eating clean. You still can have your favourites once in a while or having them in small portions.

If you are really going for eating clean and cooking it yourself but have no idea what is the recipes for eating clean, go here and here. There are more recipes to explores, so go dig some up and share it with me here =D Share your eating clean habits and lifestyle with me too!

PS: Sorry for the long winded and non graphics post LOL.

Short Hair NOW!

TGIF peeps! Just a short update on my hair. I have totally chopped off all my damage hair this time. Damages from bleaching, dying, reflexing, dying again and again... so bad. Keeping it short for now.

Not changing the colour of my hair because I still like this Mocha colour on me. So Leslie, my hairstylist suggest that we change the shape of my hair. Keep them short! It's a very refreshing look for me. Takes some ages away too XD

Before showing you my new look for this new year, just want to recap on how long my hair had grown out.

This was the previous lenght after my last visit to the salon. This was taken with Stephy baby in Singapore ❤

This was just a week before I chopped of my locks! It was taken during a friend's wedding dinner with Nicole who I have not seen since graduation!

And NOW, ***tadah*** SHORT HAIR!

I think the colour shade has gone darker this time eventhough I'm dying the same colour. Probably no more bleached damage hair. Happy!

Another New Year 2014

HAPPY NEW YEAR ALL! Aren't you glad that it's another new fresh start? I do! I want to stop apologizing for all of my late entries from now on. I don't really mind that my blog life can't keep up with my real life. It's a good thing! But, I still will try and post up all of the late entries. I might open a category for those debt blog entries.

I know most of you will be sick of hearing people's new year resolution every single year. Though, I feel that somehow, you do need to set some to keep you motivated, to set out some achievable goals, to keep you going in life.

In 2012, I did set one new year resolution which is to have a more eventful year! Guess what?! It happened! I spend most of my year attending Nuffnang events (mostly movie events), won a couple of club/concerts tickets and attending so many concerts ALL in a year! I did a few traveling overseas too. It was great! 

Last year, I did not set any new year resolutions. I wanted to lay low. Probably too hype up in the previous year. Though I still attending some concerts and get to travel to a few places. It was quite a "cuti-cuti Malaysia" (travel locally) for me. Also, I did a 5KM marathon, pretty cool. It was good. I got more time to focus on my career and also towards the end of the year, I get to figure out on what I want more in life. Oh ya, almost forgot! I read more too!

So THIS year! It's going to be a rollercoaster ride! I'm going to rock out my year! Probably I'm hitting the big 3-0 soon! So need to live it up a lot! I will be setting some new years resolutions. So far, I have are these.

• Travel more
• Try to adopt partial Eating Clean habits (for healthier lifestyle)
• Tone up my body, means exercising
• Read even more
• Have more 'me' time
• Go for a 7KM or 10KM marathon (maybe)
• Get a diving license, once I have overcome my fear of diving LOL (serious leh)
• Spend next year's new year eve at another country!

Hmm... I don't think I want to go on with the list, that would make it hard to achieve. That's all for now, I might update it from time to time.

What is YOUR new year resolution for this year? Make them count! Good Luck!

Avril Lavigne 'Avril Lavigne'

I have always been a fan of Avril Lavigne from the very start. This self tittle album of hers is THE BEST of all! I love ❤❤❤ it! Of course, adding with the fact that this album is co-wrote with her hubby Chad Kroeger from Nickelback (also one of my favourite band). Awesomesause!

It seems she doesn't age at all and with her debut track from this ablum "Here's To Never Growing Up" fits her profile so well. She still freaking looks the same in her "Sk8er Boi" outfit in this video!

Thus, I have practically grew up with her and this songs just makes you not wanting to grow up.

Right after that, came the second single of the ablum "Rock N Roll". The songs prove that this pop rock princess can still rock, yeah! 

I love this video too, is the funniest video that she have been in. Especially the 'Bearshark' part LOL

Well, you can missed out on having a co-writer and not having to have a duet with them. "Let Me Go" features her hubby in this sad song. Can you feel the irony in it?


As I have said, I'm a big fan of Avril, I have been to 2 of her concerts when she came to Malaysia and rocked hard. I don't know why but every time a new album of hers launched, it always seems to be in a good timing.

Each of her albums speaks to me on a personal level. I'm sure this happens to everyone who loves music. Cos music touches everyone's emotions. Other than the fun and happier songs in this album like "17", "Sippin' on Sunshine", "Bitchin' Summer". The mature darker rebellious songs speaks to me more, for instance "Bad Girl" featuring Marilyn Manson! You can't get any dirtier with rock! I can't wait for the video. "Give You What You Like", "Hello Heartache", "Falling Fast" and "Hush Hush" shows that she hasn't lose her touch on more sentimental songs.


I really LOVE this album a lot! This is by far the best album she had produced! Well done, Avril!

A loyal fan ❤

Mocha Short (Curl) Hair

Well, I let my hair grew out after my last visit to the hair salon. It was August that I went for my next visit to the hair salon.

I felt a bit frustrated with the sloppiness of my hair then. My curly hair grew out, it look from top wavy, towards the end of my hair were all straight. The colour had wear off too.

Can you see my frustration? Oh ya, that's my favourite hair stylist, Leslie behind me =)

I really like the basic dark colour layering on top of my previous bleach hair. The effect makes one's dark hair stands out. I also did the reflexer to cover off the waviness of my upper part head.

Leslie also styled my hair ends curl. He also taught me how to do it myself using a hair straightener, so that I can style it myself at home. Do I look good/cute/nice in this style? Do you think that having curly/wavy hair looks more mature? I'm considering getting it perm this way next time.

I did a Mocha colour this time. It's a shade darker than my Hazelnut colour. I adore this colour even more because it brings out a bit of ash tone in it.

This is a week later and the colour stays on longer. Some sharing with all of you. Darker colour hair dye will stay on longer compared to brighter colour hair dye. If you use colour care shampoo and conditioner, the colour can last longer too.

Also, this is a tip that Leslie had share with me to choose the right colour you want for the right look you are going for. People with fine hair have cooler/ash tones. People with thicker hair have warmer tones. That's why for me, the Mocha colour could brings out ashier tone. Making my look more complete. Love it! Thank you Leslie!

Fast forward 3 months later, now. My hair grow so much longer but I can't stand the weight, length and maintaining it. I was having almost serious hair fall problem. So, I decide to cut off my many layers of damage hair. CUT! Cut them short!

Pardon the blurriness of this picture, but I just want to show you the length of my hair. 

I did a laser scalp care treatment to help strengthen my hair root to easily absorb nutrition and reduce hair fall. Do you notice my hair colour did not fade much? Nice!

*Chop Chop* New short hair! Again Leslie styled the ends of my hair curl temporary. What do you think? Short curl hair better or long curl hair better?

Melissa VS Free Fish Shoes

Shoes, Shoes, Shoes! This entry, it's all about shoes. So guys, you can leave now, kidding you can get pressie ideas, you know?

Anyhow, what material of shoes do you like most? For me it's Jelly shoes! There are the most comfortable material for shoes!

My first jelly shoes is from Melissa and it's their collaboration with Campana Brothers. If you don't know how famous Melissa jelly shoes are, you better brush it up!

Melissa shoes is from Brazil, it was first inspired of a simple plastic shoe from a fishermen in south of France. Since then Melissa is the pioneer in the world of plastic shoes. With innovation and trendsetting, Melissa has collaboration with high end designers such as Vivienne Westwood, Jean Paul Gaultier, Campana Brothers, Jason Wu and so on.

I owned this pair of Melissa shoes for four years plus now, it was a gift from my aunt. It has been my favourite pair of shoes to go for ANYWHERE! Becox it's the most comfortable pair, easy to manage and easy to clean. I really love it a lot! I think this is the oldest shoes I have owned and wore often.

You can see I really have wear it off

I really love the pearly purple highlights reflecting on the dark grey base. It matches with anything! Have you seen any shoes this pretty? 

Too bad as time passed, it had reach it's limit to serve me. My dear old Melissa shoes has broken and so does my heart. Does anyone know how to fixed a jelly shoe? If you do please share! If I am able to revive it I really will.

You see, the side of the shoe has broken off. Of course you think you can still wear it right? But NO! It's not the right fit anymore.

Not long after my Melissa shoes has broken, I found out that we have a Melissa outlet in Malaysia! Isn't it awesome or what?! The outlet is located in One Utama, please go check it out!

Though I found the Melissa outlet in Malaysia, I thought of getting back the same design and colour of my shoes but too bad, it's not available anymore.

I'm quite sadden for quite sometime *not being dramatic but shoes does have sentimental values to me* and I tried to search high and low for other jelly shoes to replace my Melissa shoes. Until I come across Free Fish shoes from Japan! It was during a Japanese fair in Isetan. I wanted to get them but my size is out of stock! FML!

I tried finding it online and found out that Free Fish shoes are the hottest jelly shoes in Japan. I wanted to get them online at Rakuten and Zozotown, they have a lot of designs!

I was so wanting to get them until my friend told me that Bratpack is carrying them too. No need to wait for shipping duration. I finally was able to own my first Free Fish shoes.

Nice?

Their comfort level is the same as Melissa. I like this design a lot becox it's so chic and affordable. It's navy blue and kind of like Chanel inspired XD Love it!

By the way, it's out of the jelly shoes topic but I just want to share this. It's spring time and I don't know why I seem to unconsciously buying nude shoes.

From left to right: Nose: neon pink nude saddles, Vincci rose gold studs blush pink pumps and Zara French tip Oxford flats.

OK! Back to jelly shoes, I really can't decide which is my favourite jelly shoes brand. It's like asking me to choose who's my favourite child. I honestly can say BOTH are my favourite! If you have not own any jelly shoes yet. Please do and you will not regret, I promise.

Keeping the Tradition

I realized that every year I took pictures of CNY celebration but I never write a post about it. I also know it's April now but time really flies. I think I will be the last person in the world to talk about this year's CNY.

Every year, Grandpa likes to keep the CNY tradition by having lion dance. Every year, everyone with gather at Grandpa's place and chill. Catching up on each other's life. You know, older generations tend to have bigger families compare to now. So, everyone goes on with their life separately all around the world or even those who lives nearby hardly can have time to gather together.

It's like let's be busy but yet we still should keep in touch at least once a year. I really thinks having lion dance every year is a great thing to keep everyone close.

Oh ya, firecrackers are banned in our country but this year the government is nice enough to allow firecrackers during CNY for a few days!

To have firecrackers during CNY is such a perfect thing! I don't even remember the last time I enjoy lion dance this much without firecrackers LOL

Lion dance is great to watch because they always seem to mimic the ways of how a real lion behave.

See... they playfully trying to squeeze their way into this small entrance together.

It's good manners and good prosperous to let the lions say hi to the great great families. 

Again, trying to snatch the mandarin oranges and playing with them selfishly.

It's takes a lot of practice and effort to put on a lion dance show. 采青 'Picking the green' in mandarin means getting good luck in the start of the year.

This lion is really a naughty lion, trying to have a bite of the firecracker. It's always good to have double in the Chinese customs. So, double the firecracker this year too. One already light up from the start and another one to end the show.

The lion is trying to be mischief and up to no good? You just wait and see. 

Frighten and excited at the same time when the firecracker has lid up.

The aftermath... pretty!

Hmmm..... yummy, right? This is the BEST butter cake in the whole wide world! Only available annual by my grand aunt. I should really steal the recipe. OMG! Makes me hungry now!

CNY is always a time when I can rejuvenate and collect my thoughts, it's after all going back home the place I was born. Having everyone close at heart, it's feel very soulful.

How's your CNY? How do you celebrate?

Hazelnut Chocolate Hair

Hey guys, I'm back with hair updates. I will keep this short becox I'm already very tired but I feel like updating you guys before I sleep.

Remember I didn't know what other colours I can dye on my hair after my Ash Green Hair? Well, well, well, we are going back to basics. Going back to dark colours =D

Before showing you pictures of myself with the then new hair colour (I dyed my hair before CNY), here's how the Ash Green colour had faded and my roots are obviously coming out! 

Spot black roots

Faded colour

Tadah! There you go, my then *blogger failed* new Hazelnut Chocolate Hair! Nice or not? I didn't know getting back to basics can be this fun too. I love it!

Don't know if you notice but when lights hits my hair, there's still hints of Ash Green popping out. It's really very nice! I don't know why but the lighting doesn't do my hair colour justice, it's actually has a darker shade but the camera doesn't picks up the colour properly.

Darker colour tends to fade slower. This is a month after I dyed my hair, the colour had faded but it's not a big difference or obvious. Still looks very new and nice =D

I don't know why but my hair grows out fast. It's good news thought because I can keep changing more hair colour and hair style LOL. I did a trim last weekend and this is how the colour faded to. Faded to a light chocolate brown. Nice also hehe... *Tunic Sweater is from Uniqlo*

I also realize that if you bleach your hair, whatever colour, even dark colours you dye on, will comes out 95% of the colour that you want. Even if you don't bleach your hair, previously you dyed a light colour, the next colour picks up better too. You will still get 85% of the exact colour you want. Then when the colour starts to fade, you get different hair colours in 1 dye! Cool!